I’ve always been incredibly driven. I’ve always had a goal in mind, something to work towards whether it was an academic achievement like a degree or course or certificate, or been in pursuit of an athletic goal like improving my running pace time, breaking a personal best or getting in X number of workouts a week.
I’ve reached a point in my life where all of these goals are have either been completed (go me!) or have lost their significance and are no longer things I care about. Shockingly enough, being in a place without concrete, measurable goals is actually harder than being in the midst of the struggle to obtain them. And even harder still is letting go of the goals that no longer serve you. Letting go of the goals that are no longer important to you before you've completed them.
I am in such a great place right now. I am going to be married in 58 short days to a man that supports me, loves me unconditionally, is a great Dad and a true provider for our family. We own a cute little house that I love (mostly because it’s ours). I have the most amazing son who I adore more than anything in this whole world and who brings me so much joy and laughter every day. I am a month away from being finished my Master’s Degree in Public Health and Social Policy, which has been a goal of mine since developing a passion for Public Health during my undergrad. I have a full time permanent job that pays the bills. I’m surrounded by friends and family.
And yet, for some reason I keep thinking “what next?” I’m having trouble being still, and enjoying everything exactly as it is because life really is pretty awesome right now. I’m not saying that being ambitious and having goals is a bad thing. In fact, I think it’s so important to value self-growth and to be mentally stimulated by things that you are passionate about every day. But there’s got to be a balance between always striving for more while still being perfectly content right where you are.
This is the balance I’m striving for.
Part of me wonders if having a job in my field that challenges me and ignites my passions might create this balance. And part of me worries that I’ll always be looking to the next goal, the next stage, the next achievement.
So the question of the day; is it possible to constantly have goals while still enjoying exactly where you are? Aren't these two things a bit of an oxymoron?